Hormones and Transition Projects

Hey, so, I started taking testosterone! I haven’t really been blogging about it because I’ve been vlogging on my YouTube channel, but I thought I’d talk for a minute about the projects I’m doing throughout my transition.

Also I’ve been working during the day and it kind of sucks but sleeping at night has been really good for me.

Obviously I’ve been doing videos on YouTube, talking about what’s going on. I recorded the process of me giving myself a shot for the first time and that will be edited and up on my channel probably in like a week, max. I have to finish editing a video for a project I’m doing with my dad before I can settle in on that one. Continue reading “Hormones and Transition Projects”


My best friend is trans

A month or two ago, my bestie told me he had some gender issues. About a week later, he sent me a text that basically said “Wow, it just hit me like a truck. I’m a trans man.” His new name is Jack. All of this is pretty awesome. =]

Jack and I have been friends since.. 7th grade? Ish? Probably about seven years, now. We were friends with another person who came out as trans while we knew them and Jack didn’t handle it very well at the time. So, when I realized I had an atypical gender, I was worried I would lose his friendship. (I sort of did, for a few months.) I asked him about this after he came out to me recently and he said he had been bitter at us for coming out and taking the leap that he couldn’t. It blew my mind a little that Jack’s been aware of a gender dysphoria since way back then, but also made sense in a way.

Amusing anecdote: I used to call Jack “lady” in some contexts, like ‘Hey, lady, what’s up?’ About six months ago I stopped doing so; I would start to in a text and then delete it because it seemed off. I told Jack that story and that my spidey-sense picked up on his transness. Which he thought was funny. :p

Anyway, it’s kind of weird to be on this side of someone coming out. And having it be my best friend of seven years. Continue reading “My best friend is trans”

Constant misgendering and clothing

When I first found out I had genderweirdness, I thought I was trans*. So I started dressing like a dude and wearing dude deodorant and all that. Then, after figuring out I’m genderqueer, I still went a really long time without wearing skirts or dresses or anything.

I’ve been wearing dresses and skirts a lot more lately.

At first I was doing it because I know Degon likes it and I enjoy doing things he likes. (Plus, if it gets me laid once in a while I’M NOT COMPLAINING.) For a long time it was still really uncomfortable but I would still do it once every couple months. NEVER outside the house, though.

More often, then finally outside the house. Then enjoying being Degon’s “sexy wife” in public where people could see us. Reveling in the incitement of jealousy and the acknowledgement that this body I have is quite attractive. Continue reading “Constant misgendering and clothing”


This is a blip post about the terminology I will try to remember to use in the future. Also, I intend to mix in other ‘blip’ posts when I find something funny or interesting but don’t have a lot to say to expand on the subject. I have the feeling that a lot of these will be random WoW screenshots.

At the top of this page, the term is ‘LGBT+’, and it’s the term that I planned on using for this blog and other places on the internet. Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Trans*, and the + is meant for all the other letters that you could tack on. I’ve seen people put A(sexual) or A(llies), C(urious), Q(uestioning), I(ntersex), U(nsure) or U(ndecided). There are tons of variations on sexual attraction and gender expression.

Personally, I don’t see the necessity in differentiating Lesbians and Gay men, as ‘gay’ sort of encompasses anyone attracted to the same sex. Similarly but on the other side of the board, the T which is typical in LGBT is so incredibly ambiguous that I can’t justify its use in comparison to separating female gays and male gays. By ‘ambiguous’, I mean that T can stand for transgender, transsexual, transvestite, and is also an umbrella term for other gender-variant individuals.

It is due to these reasons that I will be using the term ‘queer’ from now on. I think it’s appropriate based on the below definition. When needed, I will specify when talking about individuals or certain parts of the community. When I refer to the community as a whole, I will use the term ‘queer community’. Hopefully this is not in any way offensive to the people who don’t read my blog.





strange or odd from a conventional viewpoint (Dictionary.com)
This was not as short as I wanted it to be and I can’t make my settings normal after that quote T.T

**Update August 8th, 2013: I don’t use ‘queer’ any more, I still use ‘lgbt+’.**

Thoughts on the term ‘Breeder’

(TW: discussion of homophobic and transphobic slurs)

In Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer, I believe it’s in a conversation between Jacob Black and Leah Clearwater that Jacob asks her when she became such a breeder. Normally I would take the time to properly quote, but the internet doesn’t have this conversation on record, nor do I have access to the literature.

The first time I read this book, that comment was quite a shock for me. It stirs some thoughts about the words we throw at each other and what they mean–both to the person hurling the insult and to the person receiving it. Continue reading “Thoughts on the term ‘Breeder’”

Day of Silence

Today is the GLSEN sponsored Day of Silence. I’ll quote the little card pinned to my chest today.

“Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence (DOS), a national youth movement bringing attention to the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by anti-LGBT bullying, name-calling and harassment. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward building awareness and making a commitment to address these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today.”

Most people in the LGBT community already know about the event and what it’s for. This is the 10th Day of Silence that GLSEN has endorsed, which I would assume means that it’s the 10th official DOS. I’ve done DOS every year for three years, since I was introduced to the gay community.

Last year, I remember reading about Day of Truth. The hate group Exodus International started it as a counter-argument to the Day of Silence. Their goal was to profess to the masses the ‘truth’ about love. I was disgusted and irritated. This year, Focus on the Family is retaking Day of Truth and turning it into Day of Dialogue, which can either be observed today or Monday. They are taking a more peaceful and less controversial course of action in having students hand out conversation cards and encouraging a Dialogue.

Continue reading “Day of Silence”